Category Archives: Jesus

Whats up with me

Im currently learning the true meaning of giving everything for Christ. I want to compose a list of all the things I never would have been able to give up if not for the power of Christ in me…

Drugs, smoking, cursing(on going war, but im winning!), drinking, sex, the wrong freinds, love of money clothes and things, and so so so much more!

NEED” is a powerful word, a powerful but false word for the most part. Apart from God, what do we really need? Food? A home? Well thats all good stuff, but what does that lead too? Well what gets you all of these things… money. Money is the root of all evil, which is why we “NEED” it so much. What cant you do with out money these days? Now dont get me wrong, i am not saying its wrong to work for money so that you can have a house and food. Thats actually alright for most people because they wont over do it, but thats all you need. A house and food are the only things you NEED! do you NEED a tv? do you NEED a bed? do you NEED an X-Box 360 ir PS3?


 Heres a thought. Depend on God… like you are supposd to do. Depend on him to meet your true NEEDS. Dont go out and buy all these things! Give that $2000 you saved up for a plasma screen to a homeless shelter. Send an awsome love offering to a missionary. Turn the root of all evil around and smack Satan in the face with it. And all that spare time you would WAIST with all of those THINGS, spend it witnessing or doing something USEFULL!

 Thats my conviction right now.


A change in Heart if you will…

Well, this may come as a shocker to some, but I have changed my mind about getting my GED. Yes I plan on finishing school and now the bigger question is college. I feel like explaining my self for this change. But before I do, please dont make fun of this, because I really do feel called by God to do this.

Matthew 19:21 – Jesus answered, “If you want to be perfect, go, sell your possessions and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.”

Matthew 19:29-30 – And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.

Matthew 25: 35-40 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’ “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’ “The King will reply, ‘I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of thesebrothers of mine, you did for me.’

 For the last 4 days I have slept out side in parks and in the woods trying to cut myself off from the material world that I have become so in love with. So many of the things in my life have taken the place of God, and I am making an attempt to correct that. Does this seem a bit drastic? I dont think it is. Christ gave his life for me… so I should be willing to give up comforts at the least? But that is just the story that set my goal in life into motion. While I have been praying about a calling in life, God has used this time to show me.

I was walking to a friends house to spend the night and on the way I passed a homeless guy. I gave him 3 bucks and he went to McDonalds and got some food, then I went about my way. The entire time I was walking, I couldnt get that man out of my head. That night I thought about all the homeless people I have seen from trips with my school and my church to Down Town Houston. And even when I was asleep I couldnt get this image of all these homeless people… hungry, naked, sick, cold, and lost, out of my brain. I prayed and thought about it all the next day, and the day after that… and today I am writting this because I do believe God has called me to the mission fields… but not the mission fields that most people think of.

When you meet a missionary to China, he will tell you about how the family had to addapt to the culture of that area in order to fit in with society. Well I feel that I have been called to leave everything I own, all the perks of a comfortable life, and devote my life to helping the homeless. I feel that God has called me to help “the least of these.”

With that said, I am looking for a good but cheap Bible college. I want to spend a minimum of 2 years in college and then I want to hit the streets. I have not finished praying about this yet, but it is heavy on my heart. And I would like to ask for your prayers and sapport in this decision.

Are we trusting God like we should?

Yesterday was a sad day for anyone who loves drama and goes to my school. Mrs. Matranga, who has been our drama teacher for 13 years, decided to leave. The news was broken to us right after we performed our play for about 120 people. Though i love Mrs. M very much, i couldnt help but feel like she wasnt leaving for the right reason.

It all started about 2 weeks ago, when her daughter got a call from a college during our practice. We didnt know what she was thinking for 2 weeks and then she brakes the news to us all right after our last play. Her reason for leaving is because she feels God is calling her to leave and get a better paying job. She has one child going into college and 2 others that will be there shortly and she said she wouldnt be able to provide for thier college with a job like this. I cant read her heart and i cant say what she was saying wasnt true, but i hope that she was telling the truth or she wasnt really trusting in God.

I dont think someone should change a position because of something like money, because God will provide. She has impacted so many lives at this school and done so much for her students. I know its not my place to say any of this, but thats how i feel and i really dont want to see her go.